Pearl Girl

Hi everyone! I am back after a long hiatus. And I am kicking. Check out the below blog and I would love to hear your feedback and research: pearlgirl@fastmail.com. Thank you for standing with me! – Pearl

14 AUGUST 2023

To the ballet lover who holds the conviction that beauty and purity are not mutually exclusive:

I am here with you.

In fact, this ballet lover believes and knows that beauty and purity are in fact dependent on each other to exist. And I know, as possibly do you, that true beauty cannot be impure. Can purity turn a blind eye? Purity must have both eyes open. And true beauty must indeed be pure. Yet, here we are in the ballet industry as it exists today, twisted with impurity to its core. Where perversion is hailed as beauty and has been for centuries. Whatever allows the dancer to attain the unattainable, perceived ‘perfection,’ is used: no matter the cost. A blind eye is willingly turned to depravity in the name of art. And in the name of funding. And in the name of not losing opportunities.

Right now, I feel like a ballet lover who is weary and disenchanted. I believed the best of the ballet world. Until I journeyed to the realization that classical ballet has been tightly intertwined with dark and demonic themes. The journey for me began nearly a decade ago, intensifying in the last 7 years to get to this place. Perhaps that is you as well. And perhaps you have been too disenchanted to even accept these realities, because it feels impossible to have anything different. The pockets of ‘good’ we perceive and experience tell us that the dark and demonic systemic realities are not that bad. That there’s something slightly redeemable. It feels like the industry, in order to be itself, must remain as is. And to admit that this current state of the industry is not the best feels like a betrayal of the essence of ballet itself.

My journey began with acknowledging that there is an agenda, that is intentional and pervasive. And it is dark, even demonic. It began with opening both my eyes to these demonic agendas. Embedded in every major ballet company’s repertoire, are agendas. This awakening has not diminished the excellence of the artistry or the technique. But it taints and perverts any purity that was once there. And therefore, I would argue that it is not and can never be true beauty. Do you agree with me?

Here are few of the themes that I found embedded in the major ballet companies’ repertoire that we know and love so well. This is just a start. 

MAGIC: Sorcery, witchcraft, spells, curses, maypoles, fortune-telling, seances, fairies, witches, . 

IDOLATRY: Gold idols, cupids, eros, artemis, orion, goat idols, greek mythology, hinduism, roman mythology, pagan idolatry, muses, gods, goddesses, ritualism. 

DRUGS AND SUBSTANCE ABUSE: Opium drugs, drug dreams, psychedelic drugs, common slang terms for common drugs (Google the meaning of terms such as candy canes). 

PEDOPHILIA: Dream scenes including children, grooming of children (one-eyed uncles peeping into Clara’s bedroom, anyone?), seduction of children, journey to candy shops (by Catholic priests in Ratmansky’s Whipped Cream), child bride wooed to kingdom of sweets (yes, our beloved Nutcracker). 

SEXUAL THEMES: Crudeness, sexual illustrations, heterosexual sex, homosexual sex, sexual references and themes, orgies, molestation, rape, body objectivity, harems (to name a few). 

NECROMANCY: Ancestor worship, conjuring of spirits, sylphs, sprites, summoning of the dead (open your eyes to Act II Giselle).

BEASTIALITY: Animalistic behavior, sexualization of animals.

SUICIDE + TRAGEDY: Suicide (assisted, often glorified). Why is tragedy hailed as beauty? 

SATANISM: Pagan rituals, cults, baphomets, all-seeing eye/third eye, satanic references & themes, illuminati symbolism, animal sacrifice, vampires, blood sacrifice, child sacrifice (check our Wayne McGregor’s AfteRite, a demonic re-make of The Rite of Spring set to Stravinky’s score). 

This is a non-exhaustive list. All easy to research yourself. And it is in our faces. Am I the only one who is seeing this with both eyes open? 

Do these themes and nuances prick at your conscience, too? Do you question whether they should be accepted as the pure form of our art form, but you do not know how to begin the conversation for something better? Is it possible to stop glorifying with and flirting with these themes?

Can we separate exquisite dance technique from the theme and themes surrounding these ballets. I am hard pressed to locate one major renowned ballet repertory void of the majority of this list. Can we be honest and say this? Or do we have to settle for tolerating evil – because I am no longer comfortable dancing around the issue. It is evil. And it is in every ballet that we attend and take our children to see. 

I want to believe that there can and will be an industry in which the major ballet companies of the world have more to their repertoire. And by God’s grace, I am on a journey to believe it. Imagine, ballet free from all points above, that encapsulate beauty without degradation: without a robbing of innocence.

So many of the classical ballets are not only said to be child-friendly, but are declared to be for children and are often danced by children. Yes, even AfterRite had students involved when American Ballet Theatre performed it at the Metropolitan Opera House in May 2018. There was no warning to parents about the horrific ending audiences would encounter.

It must be possible to have both beauty and purity coexist even in the ballet industry. As it is, our children are counting on it. I don’t have my own children yet, but I recently had an experience that woke me up to the fact that my own niece and nephew would be exposed to demonic and dark themes when just attending a family matinee by a national ballet company. I had to acknowledge that the ballet I loved contained and showcased bestiality, witchcraft, and that they would be exposed to that. I had grown accustomed to it in the name of the classical art, but my numbness could have been to their detriment. I don’t want to tolerate this in the name of “the classics” of ballet. I want to be able to send my children to classical ballet that does not impose any of the above dark and demonic agendas in order to enjoy the art form. I believe that there can be this future. Do you want this, too? 

So, here I am, standing with you, the ballet professionals who are awake. Not woke. But awake. Both eyes open: Seeing parents hesitate to send their child to study at a mainstream dance institution. Watching dancers being offered contracts who do not want to sign the dotted line, because they fear compromise. Here we are: now. And now may be the time to take the first step towards a new reality.

“For such a time as this” we are awake, and we can see. Am I ready to begin the journey to pull back the curtain of classical ballet? This is the question I ask myself. And I ask you, will you join me? We who are in the industry, know that there is no going back once the curtain is lifted. You cannot ‘un-see’ these dark and demonic agendas anymore. 

I want to believe in a future where beauty and purity can coexist, fully entwined in the art that we love. I want to believe that hope can mean beauty in this industry. Pure, untainted, real hope. Hope that is fulfilled. Not so-called hope that is torn up in a tragic wasteland named the ‘pinnacle of beauty’. I want the next generation to be able to behold true beauty, never at the cost of their innocence. Will you believe with me? 

JOIN ME. Contact me today at pearlgirl@fastmail.com

Top photo is Xiomara Reyes in The Dream. Below photo is Wayne McGregor’s AfteRite (spelled with the R in bold, blood red), a world in which a mother has to choose which of her two children to sacrifice.